feeling hot and arty

[judith desrosiers]

ok to day im far too hot.....my friend who lives behind me has a pool and all her family there, and although im invited i feel ...in the way, so ive stayed here with my windows shut too, becos i have an insane cat who likes to jump off rooves!I feel really disgrunteled(not sure if thats how u spell it?!)I moaned when i was cold, and now moaning when hot.....I just want to be creative and earn enough money to have a luxurious home maybe I should of considered this earlier in my career, when i just thought I would do what i wanted...what I like to do is choregraph, but life has more recently got in the way, with health issues etc, its hard to push yourself hard when you feel exhausted physically, and yet being creative is who I am, take that away, and i feel an emptiness inside, Ive never written a blog before, so thats a first for today....maybe i will feel a little more satisfied with my achievements.........but will fall asleep dreaming ....of own pool all cool and luvly against the skin...........hm hm.........must drink some water..